Little I know

Little I know,

The wickedness of the soul, which defeats me ever so often
Little I know about it,
Little I know about the campaign of prevarications inside me,
Little I know how to win over the fears I have,
Little I know these astounding whispers in my ears,
Little I know this unweary person who stops not, 
Little I know this gratitude of the Lucifer,
Little I know his hope in me,
Little I know his deadpan smiles,
Little I know the attractions in his eyes,
Little I know his ways,
Little I know his love for me,
Little I know the act of treachery for the love of the Lucifer,
Little I know his love for you,
Little I know impuissant me,
Little I know your calls for I hear them not,
Little I know your forgiveness for I love you not,
Little I know your guidance for I want it not,
Little I know your strength for I see it not,
Little I know your knowledge for I accept it not,
Little I know your rewards for it attracts me not,
Little I know these people for their chaos harkens me,
Little I know their cries for it saddens me,
Little I know their schemes for forever we live not,
Little I know your creation for creating its worth not,
Little I know this act of quizzing me for which I pass not,
Little I know this state of denial for I deny you not,
Little I know you my GOD for you described me not,
Little I know myself for in real I exist NOT.